Saturday, March 12, 2011

Letter to my daugther on her first birthday ...

Beatrice Kate:

How is it possible that it has been an entire year since you made me a mother? I cannot comprehend how time has moved so quickly, and yet seemed to stand still all at once.

Daddy and I prayed and wished for you for months before you were spoken into existence. You were created out of love and wanted more than you could ever know.

I knew, even before I met you, that I would love you with every fiber of my being. What I didn't expect however, is the magnitude of this love. It's unlike anything I've ever experienced in my entire life. It's an all-consuming, all-encompassing feeling that makes me smile and tear up at same time.

Beatrice Kate, you have been such a pleasant surprise from the get-go. Arriving eleven weeks early wasn't the only surprise you had in store for Daddy and I. Did you know that I was absolutely convinced that you were going to be a boy? I was so happy, though, when the doctors told us that we had been blessed with a daughter.

From the first time I laid eyes on you, I was overwhelmed by just how beautiful you are. I don't know how Daddy and I created something so perfect, but I am thankful that we did. I think you'll be keeping Daddy busy in a few years, chasing the boys away. When I first saw you in the NICU, I couldn't believe how long your eye lashes and fingers were! Oh, and your tiny ears! They were so precious. Even at two pounds, you were perfect. Tiny, but perfect.

You have taught me so much in just the short amount of time that we've known each other. Most importantly, you've shown me, and the world, that it's not your physical stature that defines who you are or what you can become. Instead, it's inner strength and resolve that will help make your dreams come true someday.

You have been a fighter since Minute One. From your first, kitten-like cry, to your abbreviated stay in the NICU, your feisty spirit was front and center. I know, without a doubt, that it's that spirit that will elevate you above the rest of your peers and make you a natural leader. Watch out world!

Underneath that spunky little attitude is a sweet, loving nature. You are the happiest, smiley baby I have ever seen. I hope that you continue to show the same compassion towards your friends and loved ones as you get older. It will take you even farther in life.

I am so, so proud to be your mother. This is the hardest, but most rewarding job I've ever had. Yes, there are days that are tough. But, there are twice as many that are hilarious and happy! You make me smile nearly every time I look at you.

Today, on your very first birthday I am overcome with a bittersweet mix of reflection of our past year and excitement for the future. I am so thankful for getting to meet you three months earlier than I thought I would. I cannot wait to see the person you will grow into. I know without a doubt, you will continue to amaze and inspire me with your life.

Thank you for choosing me to be your mother. I love you sweet girl.

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