Exactly one year ago today, this happened and then this.
One year ago today, I was so, so scared that the baby that Casey and I prayed for, wished for, hoped for, the baby that we created wouldn't be.
I remember exactly the emotions that I felt the day I was admitted to the hospital initially. I was so scared, so afraid, so ... unprepared for what was happening around and in me. My stomach still flips and turns, knots and rumbles at the memories stirred up by this first anniversary, today.
We weren't ready to become parents yet. We weren't ready to meet our baby yet. We weren't ready for any of what was about to happen, yet. But it didn't matter. A plan, larger than any one that we could have imagined, was already set into motion for us.
Prepared or not we would, in fact, become parents in less than two weeks. We would become forever changed, but forever strengthened as individuals and most importantly, as a family. Our own, tiny family with our own, tiny baby.
One year ago today, we prayed together. We cried together. We pleaded for more time to be pregnant, together.
One year ago today, we began to see magnitude of God's grace in the faces of our friends and family after several tearful phone calls to explain what was happening. The help that you all provided to us. The love that you all showed to us. The encouragement that you all gave us. It was indescribable. We were humbled, and still are, at the amount of support we received from each and every one of you.
One year ago today... we had no idea how our lives would be so complete. All because of one tiny, fiesty, beautiful baby girl who couldn't wait to meet us; her parents.